week 1 - day 7

today it's Saturday and i went to the soccer field, where about 20 young men were having a (american) football practice (pretty sure it was the Geegees), all 'torse nu', all sweating and pumping, under the sun, at midday.. i had a wonderful time.
i wrote my 3 pages of string-of-consciousness and loved it.. i prayed for my little bro who doesn't seem to be doing so well emotionally and spiritually and even physically.. i prayed for mom, who's also everythingly exhausted i think, for recovery. (last night i told her to bring a journal when she goes to Haiti's, x) ). i hope they both get better. i trust God will do miracles.

anyways so writing my pages was great..
i realized i would love to be part of a real competitive sports team again, like one that has practices during the week and matches during the weekend or whatnot.. i love the feelings those things bring, i love the extra social life/community it adds to ur life, i love the exercise and the pushing my physical (and mental, gotta say) limits.. mostly i love the 'alive' feeling it all gives me, as well as the feeling of getting better/improving at something.. setting goals.. feeling tired when u're done.. but feeling so good physically.. and that's without talking about the endorphins that make u feel so great mentally/emotionally... ahhhh :).
maybe some day i will go back to school (university) and be able to be a part of the basketball team or sthg.. i thought of joining the running/athletics team when i was in my first year, but u had to get up so early and i could never fall asleep early enough to be rested enough in the morning..
--im realizing this sleeping problem really has stolen much from me.. the devil has better pay back 7 times fold what he took away from me, in Jesus' name.--
anywyas. but i think what i'd rly like is be able to play soccer.. if i could join a soccer team.. and start learning w them.. but only young ppl do that.. i wish i could still do it at my age n in my situation.. but i did have an idea this morning, as i was working out -ish on the soccer field.. (i did a little barefoot work-out in the sun when the guys were done and i was done my journaling, :).) this is it: i thought i could come to the soccer field every once in a while (since i live right next to it) and just practice on my own.. i could look up youtube video tutorials and practice that on my own.. neways we'll see.
but that's the power of morning pages for u; it makes u discover things u would like and expands your life in a way, making u live a happier, fuller, more alive, life.. :)
Thank you God for Julia Cameron, thank you for the Artist's Way, and thank you for morning pages. :). i love u oxo

i also thought of starting a blog where i can store all my dreams and their interpretations. im pretty excited about that.

as well as a blog where i can "count my blessings".. im rly stoked about that one too. thk u Lord <3

i love morning pages <3

n now i feel more alive, excited and hopeful about life. which for anyone who knows me, is a big deal. praise the Lord <3

i rly like this morning pages concept, i should prolly do it more often. the book says to do it every single day.. i think i should